How’s it going?
I’m stalling because I want to admit something that’s hard to admit.
How’s the weather where you are?
Out with it Weinberg.
I experience, from time to time, Jealousy.
Wow. That wasn’t so hard to write actually.
I don’t think I’m alone in that feeling. And the reason I’m blogging about this today is that I had a HUGE Ah-Ha about it that just might rock your world.
Are you sitting?
I looked Jealousy right in it’s beady little face…instead of turning inward and wondering why I don’t measure up in this way or that way…and this is what I saw.
I saw myself, in my best possible incarnation. I saw the message that was behind the nag that I have labeled Jealousy…and it was beautiful.
This emotion that for years told me I wasn’t good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, thin enough, *insert ridiculous thought here* enough…was actually just trying to show me a way that I could be happier. More fulfilled.
Let me give you an example.
I have been triggered by a friends relentless commitment to exercise. I can take it or leave it really. I have a dog. He gets two nice big walks a day. He is happy. I’m happy. My clothes still fit.
But I kept getting triggered. Feeling less than. And those who know me know that’s not a normal place for me to sit.
So when I looked into Jealousy and had a conversation about why the hell it won’t leave me alone, I got a HUGE truth. I USED to walk my dog twice a day, but since I moved he has acres to run around on and I just let him out. And this exercise that I tell myself I’m getting, I haven’t really gotten consistently since I moved.
The Jealousy wasn’t about me not being committed…it was a reminder that this was missing from my life. It was to highlight the thing in my friend that I need to take on for myself.
That is so much kinder!
So very helpful.
And it wasn’t Jealously at all….that was me just not wanting to look at it…it was just a super friendly insight that kept getting louder and louder until it resembled something that is menacing.
I have tried this on for other things I’ve experienced Jealousy over…and it turns out that with very minor shifts I can see the advice hidden there as well.
Do you understand how much that changes the game?
I’ll let that sink in for a moment.
Yeah. Now you get it.
It’s never as bad as we think it is.
Our power to love ourselves is so much greater than we give ourselves freedom to experience.
And the insights that surround us, if we let them in…will seriously blow our mind.
I just bought a jump rope. Problem Solved.
And I’m buying myself a Dark Chocolate make up gift for making a beady eyed mountain out of an adorable little mole hill.